Weighed myself this morning, and I have lost another 3.2kg! I’m not sure if I am going to lose weight every week but I will probably weigh myself in a couple of weeks or whenever the mood takes me. It’s a novelty at first but I am still battling with my sweet tooth and desire for meat.
I think I am going to always struggle with food, this is definitely a hard phase for me and I think it may improve once I am back at work in the New Year. I do find meal times very difficult as the family are eating whatever they like and having teenagers they often eat at odd times of the day and some days it feels like there is food constantly being prepared and consumed.
As food has been with me as a constant companion, I find it incredibly difficult to deal with. I am repairing well physically but my head has not come to terms with the physical change my body has gone through. I also feel I should be very bubbly to cover the fact that this is a very hard transition period. No one said it would be easy but as everyone’s experience is so different, I feel I should be on par with everyone else’s portrayal, or at least my perception of their experience. I
t is a concern that I am already failing at the first few yards with the first hurdle looming. I think we should be offered counselling post surgery. We focus all our energies on getting through all the hoops we have to jump, dealing with stress after stress, and eventually we get the date we have chased for so long, still not believing it is actually going to happen and then bang, the op is done and you are left to your own devices and it is your stomach that has been bypassed and not your head. Help, I am still trapped in my mind with food!
You read it will get better but all the time you are feeling, yes but it’s not NOW! I need help NOW! I would still rather push the boundaries to see how much food I can have and will it make me ill, rather than focus on making sure I am drinking enough and have I set the alarm for my Clexane injection at 6pm.
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