20.12.10

Oh dear, my throat is so sore, not sure if it is because I have been snoring my head off for hours and the lack of my cpap machine or whether it is because I have now caught Oliver’s germs, eeerrrr!!!!!! Paul comes into the hallway and says he has overslept because no else had to get up work school or work. Poor darling, the day has started and none of us are quite ready to embrace it yet.

Oli surfaces next and comes in for grunt, typical language of all teenagers. He’s showered and Paul convinces him he needs to walk the dog before taxi mum takes him to work. I, being the wonderful caring mother that I am, lmao, dutifully cook him and Pauly bacon sandwich and myself bacon and egg. I managed to eat the bacon and half an egg, and once again have to annoyingly wait 30mins for the best mug of black coffee of the day.

I am finding the old bowel movements a bit hit and miss, not in the bathroom of course but whether or not I can actually manage to go more than spitting a marble as it were! Wind on the other hand does seem to roam freely of an evening but luckily not on a daily basis. I have discovered curry is the best way of going without the aid of senna, as I really don’t want to live on laxatives and if I eat fruit I get the reverse reaction. I could no more hold that in that hold water in my hand without it escaping. Oh the joys of WLS and bowels!

Well after being in and out most of the day I come home to find Paul & Callum have baked another fresh loaf, but this time with a twist. I am really hunger as it is now late afternoon. Thought you were not supposed to get hungry, but I do. The loaf they have made is full of different nuts. I of course think nothing of cutting myself a slice doorstep style, (I can’t cut bread thin to save my life) and I apply a bit of butter. I manage half a slice before becoming in pain as the soon as I feel the pain, I know once again I have to greet the porcelain with my usual stance and greeting. I deserved that didn’t I? How stupid was I to believe that would agree with me but hunger and logical never did make friends in my head!

For dinner tonight I decided I can’t be asked to make anything and haven’t a clue what I fancy. I rummage in the fridge and discover someone has left some leftover mash in a saucepan, probably Niamh if it was her dishwasher day. I continue to rummage, mmm....... there is some left over curry and there is some cheese to make the mash a little more exciting. I know it is disgusting to some but I have a penchant for cold curry, especially cold curry on hot toast. Alas, my episode with the porcelain earlier makes me decide maybe not toast today and I heat up the mash with some cheese and put it in a bowl besides my cold curry. I am overwhelmingly disappointed with the reheated mash and hardly touch that and to add insult to injury I think Paul or one of the kids picked up the mild cheese instead of the extra mature cheese and it is totally bland, yuk! The curry on the other hand is fan dabby dozzy.

Later tonight I am hungry again, maybe not hungry, but I feel I still need food and I once again rummage in the fridge and as it is almost bare I have to decide what I can possibly make. I made some low fat mayonnaise mixed with some curry paste to make a dip and have some melba toast and some low fat baby bels. Yep that hits the spot and I nicely satisfied. I am still unsure if I am over eating or eating the right amount. Guess I am not going to find out unless I can muster the courage to get on the scales, and that just aint happening this year unless I am drunk or forced to.

Ooh I almost forgot, Paul got me some Walkers Cheese and Onion crisps my absolute favourites and I ate them with no problems and they were heaven on my sore throat, as they were lovely and scratchy. He also bought me a packet of Quavers, both of which were at my request as I had been fancying them for days. They too were brilliant and now that desire has been satisfied. As for the other, no still no bloody luck, lol! Need to get rid of the teenagers and Paul alcohol collection first, and then I might get a look in.

I actually looked at a couple of adult chat sites but only got as far as the terms and conditions and chickened out. Wonder if I will get any toys for Christmas, lol.